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[02 Apr 2004|10:26pm] |
Casey got a new journal
Vanity_Bliss
California_PinUp was ONE LETTER to big
EeEeEeEe
I'm getting a job at 'Little Party Animals'
And if you make fun of it your just pissed cos you can't work there. OH, and suck a dick sucka.
Kthx. BYE.
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[28 Mar 2004|02:45am] |
California_PinUp
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Vanity_Bliss
x0x0x0x0x Pick one and Lemme know in my comments x0x0x0x Cos I want a knew Live Journal
<3 Kthx Bye
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[21 Mar 2004|02:02am] |
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I have come to the decision, that I'm just gonna let it all out. Cos I'm not venting right. And like I dunno. So shut the fuck up.
I don't even know what to say. Like I'm much deeper then people think. But I hold it all back cos I don't wanna feel stupid. I don't wanna get into meaningful conversations because I'm afraid of getting to fucking meaningful. Yeah, I'm getting to a point right now where there's no point in holding back? I mean what for? I always just go with it. Say what I think will make the other person feel better. Whatever. I'm sick of not writing what I WANT AND FEEL into MY JOURNAL. I hold feelings, words, emotions back because I don't wanna be bitched at by another fucked up person that can't except their own faults and don't like it when other people talk about them. I dunno I guess I just wanna admit to being spiritual? I even dare to say it out loud. Knowing my mom would get all crazy with all her fucking bird bones and spell books. GOD. I just like being the way I am. In my room. Where no one can bug me or disapprove of friends or anything of that matter. Like I go and ask the flipin' Mrs. Sorceress and shit if I can like have a good spell book with like I dunno like little love spells because nothing goes right [Just thinking I could give it a try] And like she has a chicken egg pop outta her ass "NOOOOO don't buy that... ooooohhhhh my goooood." All dramatic and shit. I mean she tells me she's a mermaid. YEAH. SHE'S CRAZY. Like right now I feel really retarded talking about spells? I like to think that I have some music appreciation. And like when I say some BANDS [Not fidy cent and all that pop rap shit] that I like. I FEEL STUPID. Why do I? I have no idea... to me like I think I'm not suppose to like Pink Floyd or The Doors. I have no idea why. I just do. And when I say I do SOME people look at me like I'm fucking crazy. And whatever. I like A LOT of different music. So fuck you too.
I just want people to know that there is more to me. But I don't wanna come out and say it. I mean there is more to me... and like I guess more to love? But anyone that even trys to get close to me I just push away. Heres a fucking answer. I don't like to be one on one with people. Cos when I am.. I open up and the few times I have done that I get hurt. So WTF is the point? THATS WHY I DON'T LIKE TO BE ONE ON ONE. With all that fucking group date bull shit. I like romance and stuff... And like I dunno being under the stars... walking along the beach... or just like walking around at night with him. But does ANYTHING ever good ever happen? No. First it was Jose with all his gang violence and fucking crack sells and shit. Fucking with his dysfunctional ass killing his mom's dog. YEAH. That was a mistake. And look what I did... I let him in... and got hurt. But I look back of it and feel so dumb. EUCH. I got so caught up in the moments with him. I just fall to easy. And every birthday... valentines day... christmas... I'm like left alone with out anyone special. I dunno like it's not even that. Like I see my friend and like see how much she LOVES this guy... I mean her first kiss was on New Years Eve at MIDNIGHT when people were shooting off fireworks and like being happy and he kissed her at EXACTLY midnight. How cute is that? Like my friends tell me all these stories and I like melt. YEAH. My first kiss was under a car. WOW. Hoooow romantic. Like everyone had a cute story behind everything. I just wanna like experience love and like what it feels like to have someone chasing after you. And like to get flowers and like for someone to be like so happy to talk to you or see your face. And since I want this so bad I have made mistakes of letting the wrong people in a pushing the right ones out. Like the last two guys with me... one was "Playing around and thought I knew it" [Yeah. And you knew I didn't know thats why you plays games] And the other one is a piece of shit jock strappin' asshole. I just wanna know what it feels like to wake up and have someone already called you to see how your day was. Like I don't even know WHAT I WANT. I just want someone to be there. Like every other person has. Someone who cares about me... if I miss a day of school... if I like are have a bad day. And I know this sounds weird but like someone who wouldn't care if you don't have a perfect body; but that they liked you for who you are with them. Not with your friends. With him. Just I mean. I have no idea. I just want someone I guess.
Yeah, and you NEVER expected this did you?
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[19 Mar 2004|11:54pm] |
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Little angel
Go away
Come again some other day
Devil has my ear today
I'll never hear a word you say
He Promised I would find a little solace and some peace of mind
Whatever
Just as long as I don't feel so desperate and ravenous
Desperate: Beyond hope; causing despair; extremely perilous; irretrievable; past cure, or, at least, extremely dangerous; as, a desperate disease; desperate fortune.
Ravenous: Devouring with rapacious eagerness; furiously voracious; hungry even to rage; as, a ravenous wolf or vulture.
..::.. God I know I should of listen to anyone else but you ..::..
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| Slumber Parrrt-a |
[17 Mar 2004|08:39pm] |
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Yeah. Karli, Kayla, and then Nina came to my house last night.
Mike and Arron came to. We watched a movie and the guys went home around 2:00 AM.
I was gettin sick of Nina. Like hella. Cos after a couple of days she is irratating. But don't get me wrong.. she's my friend. I just can't spend like more then 2 days with her in a row. Or I get crazy.
My and Kayla stayed up the whole night. Ahaha. It was fun
I'm suppose to go hang out with Corky for a lil bit. I gotta call her aiight now.
Peace out wiff muh Gangsta GRILL.
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| Pool Party - My House - 8 O'clock |
[16 Mar 2004|10:48am] |
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Popcorn, hot dog buns and hamburger patties
All of the food you need to feed the many hungry
Millions of people want into my party
But its invite only and you're on the list baby
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Kk. Today should be fun. Karli, Kayla, and maybe Nina are gonna spend the night. Maybe night swimming and were gonna have fun. YE - ah. Lol
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| Marguerite J. Berardo |
[15 Mar 2004|10:12am] |
This is to you.
Thank you for being there and showing that you care. You were like a Grandmother to me. And I will always remember you as one. I will miss you. Forever.
Love you, Rest In Peace
1927 - March 14, 2004
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| EhEhEHeHEHEhE |
[15 Mar 2004|01:15am] |
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Yea... OH KAY! WHAT?! WHAT?! OKAAAAY! YEAHHH!
KK. I'm umm buzZzZZZZzzzzzZzed. And like just got in front being outside with Jammy and Courtney.
Kay, well, like tonight was interesting... and there were some awkward moments between me and Jammy. And like I could like feel.. the.. the.. I dunno. But hey I wanted to kiss him but I DON'T make the first move.
We'll have to do dis again sometime. Soon.
[Pink Floyd + Stars + Pizza + Beer = <3]
Kthx. Bye.
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| EeEeEeEeEeEeE |
[12 Mar 2004|07:03pm] |
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The school announced my name over the loud speaker today. Cos I won. And like I talked everything out with the guy I kinda.. Like. :) Everything is good. Now I'm just waiting to see whats poppin' T0n!Ght. So yeah.. EeEeEeEeEe
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| Holy Taleeeeeeetoes! |
[11 Mar 2004|01:00pm] |
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OMG#@*^%#@^*~%$#@&*~$@&*(~%#@*OMG
I WON TREASURER!
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[05 Mar 2004|04:16pm] |
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I don't want to like him
Because it wont work out
But I guess I do like him
And... I just don't want to
I'm all cunfused
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| ShRoo0oOoO0oo0O0oOMiE |
[27 Feb 2004|10:40pm] |
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%#@!YaAYyaYaYaYayaYA!@#%
MUTHA FLUPPA!!!
I'ma Run FoR Tha TrEaSuRea Cos ThatS How PiMpS Do IT
I Got MuH BrAcEs OfOFOFOoFfFOf GO GO GO RRRREEEEETTTAAAAIIINERRRS!
WHOOhOHOojoOOJ0oOjo!
Go BRUsH YHaya SHouLderS OfofofF
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| Good Times |
[21 Feb 2004|09:58am] |
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Last night was so fun. Well then.. this is how it started. Kayla and Karli weren't gonna go to softball so I stayed after for the basketball game with them. We stayed outfront for a while till softball left for the fields. Then we went into the locker room. We went in the back and tryed to fit in the sports lockers @(*&$^#* !!! they kept freaking out cos they thought softball was gonna come in there and Kayla's like "Man I really gotta take a shit" so she's like holding her ass and like we all gotta get over into the bathroom but we kept hearing people so we like hid in the lockers. Then like we all went over to the bathroom like 4 times but kept running back. HAH. So then we went and watched the basketball game [We were in and out of there like 80 Billions times] So yeah Freshmen was over we went and got food. And like Mitchel was with us. We were like standing in this hallway while Matt was raping Karli. LOL. And me and Kayla were being tweeks. Then we went into the locker room and pulled Mitchel in and like he came and Muccuan followed and we were just like taking random pictures. Haha. And like we tryed to put Mitchel in a sports locker and like he was just like hanging from it. Is was so funny. Then we went back inside to watch the J.V. basketball game. WHOO. Numba 20 is cute. I guess his name in Will. KK, well then like Nina shows up and Me, Karli, Kayla, and Muccuan end up going over to her house to chilax. Nina brought down birthday cake. And like Nina said something and Karli took cake and just creamed Nina with it so me and Kayla got up and like hella ran and then they got us too. We had cake all over our faces so we took some pictures! I put Mandy fairy wings on that she left at Nina's so we decided to go outside. And like we were walking down Jason Minicks street and we heard a dog so I started screaming and like it was outside. So I started to run. AND IT WAS CHASING ME! $!#%(!$#@*(#@*(( I WAS LIKE 'WTMF' And then like Nina tryed to ppet it and it almost killed her so we all ran. Then I broke Mandy's Fairy wings so we were gonna take them to her house and we started walking. And like we have to go down this scary road with like an open field but right in the middle are a group of tree's and like we didn't wanna walk down it in the first place cos someone got raped in there. And like I was walking with Kayla and looking into the trees and like through the moonlight I could see two people standing there. And I grabbed Kayla and was like "There people there turn around." And she went "WHAT?!" And when I grabbed here to turn around... I guess the people noticed it and starting shooting at us! #(#($#^~#@@***-$# WE HELLA RAN AND LIKE WERE SCREAMING! I said they were shotting paintballs at us cos it sounded like one. HAHAHA. It was sooo cool. Then like we went back inside Nina's and stayed in there for the night. Then like Muccuan left and me, Kayla, and Karli needed a ride home. So we started calling people. And no one could give us a ride. And like Kayla was fighting with her Mom on the phone and like we could here her Mom yelling. Haha. So like we Kayla's mom pulled up we just got into the car and she took us home. HAH. It was good.
Tonight were all suppose to hang out agian... and I guess go over to Charlie's cos he's in town and I want Robby there. Cos he's fine. And yeah. He's fine.
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[18 Feb 2004|06:22pm] |
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1] Found out Adam's playing games - Whatever I told you so
2] Graham's back from China
3] I'm sick
4] People think Karli, Tiff, and I are talking shit at school about someone. And were not.
5] Major drama
6] Theres this guy... I think he's names Nick... He seems real nice... kinda follows me. I was told he's a junior. Whatever.
7] I got bitched out a while back for a grade in P.E. That wasn't my truthful grade. YEAH. I got that shit fixed.
8] I'm really sick of a lot of people
9] I'm gonna take A.P. History because I'm smart
>>>>WHATEVER. GOD.
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| F VALENTINES DAY |
[14 Feb 2004|02:37pm] |
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You know no holiday will ever go right in this house. I'm trying not too cuss but it's not working. K, heres how it started.
I just wanted to finish the damn card for my Mom on the computer but of course the queer boy computer is f'ed up. So I call my Dad into fix. And of course he doesn't know how to do shit so it was just a big fight cos he wouldn't get outta my way. :D
So I just showed her the card on the computer. And she liked it. Then like my Dad was having a fit about some f'ing curtains and how my Mom shouldn't of opened them back up. What a bunghole.
Then like my Mom is like "When are you gonna open your gift or are you just going to sit on the computer all day?!" Like I wanted to finish her card and then give her her present so we could open it together. But of course. That didn't fly.
So she gets all mad and put my present by my door and walks off. So I took her present and put it on the counter. Then shes like "Casey, did you not want this or something?" And I walked down the hall and was like "Thats your present" And walked off.
Then she went outback and sat outside. She is still outback, she has been out there for like 54783243289065438 hours. Whateva. Holidays 'round here suck.
I just go and sit in the only room I know has a lock - My bathroom. Hah.
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| I Never Sleep |
[14 Feb 2004|12:14am] |
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I was kicked off the computer a couple days ago. Haha. AGAIN. But my Mommy talked to my Dad and I got let back on. YE - ah. I got in a huge fight with my parents that day. Cos I have a bad grade. Ehh. Whatever.
I got really sick on Wednesday and didn't go to school.
Tomorrow Today is Valentines Day. YayAyay$#*$#@!$!
I <3 Valentines. Maybe I'd like it better if I had one?
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| I Looked Like A Clown |
[08 Feb 2004|12:04am] |
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I didn't wake up until like 12:00PM - Hehe
Then like I fought with my Mom for about and hour then went and watched the Billabong Odessey. It was coo.
Then I went to Wal*Mart with my DooDa. I got some lip gloss and saw NeTTeR's. Then I went to JaMbA JuCiE! YEAH! That was soooo good. Then KFC. It was quite a little outing.
I went to Ashley's 'round 5:30 - We played makeup then I looked like a clown. Scurry.
Much Much Much FUN.
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| They Just don't Get It |
[06 Feb 2004|11:21pm] |
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God, all I have been doing is getting in trouble. My Mom doesn't get shit. And is like "There must be something wrong with her because she doesn't feel sorry for the women who they hit." 'They' being Matt and Nick. You know what? This might be crude but that lady got off easy with a leg injury. Matt was almost killed and Nick was. Holy !@*#$.. Dude, I'm so sick of both my parents. They can both jut like leave me alone for a while. !@#$#@
I stayed after school for the Basketball game with Karli, NeTTeR's, Kayla, Tiff, And uhh... other people I can't remember.
I don't even know whats going on with Adam. All I know is that I like him and I don't no anything else. Just that it's all messed up.
A neighbor asked me to Baby - Sit on Valentines Day. Well, whatever. I'm not doing anything so I'll do it. Since I don't have a Valentine. :[
Courtney invited me over to eat PiZZa and we just talked and watched this butt munchin' movie called Anansi. WTF! *!@&#$^! Haha. It was hardcore.
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| The Car Crash |
[04 Feb 2004|07:32pm] |
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http://www.contracostatimes.com/mld/cctimes/content_syndication/local_news/7870796.htm
^Click that link to get the whole 411^
Matt is in ICU. He has Internal Bleeding, Brain Injury, Ruptured Spleen, Punctured Left Lung, He's currently stable and has a 50/50 chance of living. I've heard he's paralyzed from the waist down and he has a broken neck, but I don't know that for a fact.
I luv you Matt, your gonna make it through this and you'll be fine.
RIP
Nicholas Scott Gulbransen
- Though I didn't know you well at all you'll always be remembered -
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